I dreamed of Tanya again. The story I dreamed was a bit different from what happens usually when I dream about her. Usually, she’s making breakfast in the kitchen, wearing my fave T-Shirt with the Swedish flag on it and then, herself, sitting on my lap, feeding me with pancakes… This dream was different, not only as it goes for sex, but also for what really happened and emotional was on an even higher level…
We met at school. At first, there were many people watching a soccer game. She was vowing for our school’s soccer team. I noticed her, while talking with a friend of mine, who is actually in my class and then for some reason, i can’t remember exactly why, I had to leave and passed near her. the crowd was gone and she looked at me while passing near her.
I was waiting at the bus stop, nobody was there, it was somehow dark already. I was listening to the wind, the leafs being flown by the wind… I could hear everything but not really… Like in a scary movie, you can hear everything else but the thing you should be most scared of. Same happened with me: “Hey, why are you waiting here alone?” Tanya asked me when finally standing right next to me. ” I guess nobody else is travelling with the bus tonight.” was my reply. ( I must make the note that in my dream we’re both single!). I had the feeling that the bus won’t come so I started walking home and she followed me. “Want some company?” she asked me and my reply was “Sure, if you insist.”. That’s how everything between us began…
We eventually became closer-from saying “Hi” and “Goodbye” at first when seeing each other, we exchanged numbers and started going out on cafes, cinema’s etc… We started talking for hours not only on the phone but face-to-face as well. In my dream, her zodiac sign’s Cancer (I am not sure if in reality it is the same) and since I’m Earth we fit perfectly. We kept this in secret though and it was understandable since she’s a teacher and I am a student, even in my so, so realistic dream…
The first kiss we had was in the park near her flat actually. It was dark and she leaned and kissed me-gently but then if I could described the following, trust me I would but let’s just say that those soap opera actors could learn a thing or two from us… I was like “WTF” at first but then I kissed her back and held her in my arms and soon, her flat “asked us” to go inside…
We soon got undressed and she sat on top of me. She cupped my face with her arms and kissed me, while my lips were kissing back and tongue-”dancing” back, my arms were hugging her tight. I could feel how soft her skin was-like a new-born baby’s butt. She smelled delicious-like vanilla dessert… The rest of the sexual part of my dream will stay for me only though 
We took it to the next level when I turned 18 finally and we went abroad. We even got married and had kids…
This all went like a movie in front of me when I saw her coming to school today. I was having Bulgarian as a first lesson and I saw her coming to the school. She looked at me and it was like we both stopped breathing for a second. Like the whole world stopped because we made it like that. The thing is-can that actually be a shared love and not just a love-flirt thing? Not to mention love-experiment thing…
PLEASE comment with what you think.
The fact you dreamed this dream must mean something. Either this thing fills up your entire mind, or deep down you know what you want. Kind of hard to judge from a distance though.
I really wish it is the second thing-like I can really see myself with her
From what I’ve gathered, you truly want to know what can be between the two of you.
I take it you haven’t taken her up on her note that you should talk.
You’re both walking on a tightrope. It wont be easy either way.
I think she really feels something towards you but it scares her a lot. I only stop breathing for a while when the person I see means a lot to me.
We spoke about the Alex scenes before. In one scene she says to Seth we were each other’s in between people persons. That they helped each other get ready for what is next.
I believe you know who your in between people person is…
Yeah.. Sasha is but I wish she wasn’t. It is just that what I actually look for in a person but the spark’s somehow missing. If if was something like, me having kids with Sasha, I would have stayed with her not only because of the kids but because of the family concept.
The scene you mentioned was something I forgot but it turns out that it fits really well.
Would you really stay for the family concept…
Some relationships are never meant to last. We all need someone that makes us feel special and cared for, and great sex to distract the mind after a shitty situation/relationship/unreturned feelings whatever.
The sex with Sasha is amazing. I actually would stay for my family because my dad left when i was young and I don’t want my future kids going through that especially with the other parent like my mom.
What a story. Yes, dreams are a powerful thing. We tend to sometimes think it’s just a dream, but it’s in fact US. it’s our dream and they are shaped the way they are because of who we are and what we want.
I read about the heartache of yours and I am the same but I eat just so I wouldn’t die from hunger. I force myself and tend to be alone since nobody can really help me. My bff knows about her and that’s all-nobody around me knows.
Tell me about it. I used to just feel this enromous lump inside my stomach and could eat just small portions. It was awful and it starts every time I feel nervous or miserable. It’s pretty bad. Do you feel this way now?
Now it is a bit better but a year ago, I even attempted suicide twice. If it wasn’t my bff we probably wouldn’t be having this conversation right now.
OH! it must have been pretty bad. don’t try that, because you might get reborn in a shitty third world country.
If this really exists, in my past life, I was an Italian rich chef with the tendency of being a Casanova. Plus, I was also a male.
hehe, yes it makes sense. what makes you think you were like casanova?
Because I have many people who literally beg me for love and dates, because I am not really flirty and because I am going through this shitty thing. If I weren’t a Casanova before, my life would be something better and plus-this Italian cooking thing explains why I am such an amazing cook!
You can cook!! Lucky you. I am old and lazy to learn haha. Don’t worry – love always comes to us, just in crazy forms and sometimes at the worst time.
Sasha’s like the perfect girlfriend, she can do it all and she knows that I still have feelings for someone and despite that she was the one to say “You’ll get through this”. And I do feel something for her-it’s more like “friendship with sex” rather than a healthy relationship for me.
Have you been with her for a while?
We met a lil bit more than a month and we’ve been dating for some time like 2 weeks or so. We have this connection,we even finish our sentences….She’s beautiful, smart etc.. BUT despite she’s my ideal girlfriend my heart’s taken by Tanya…
Yea, I know what you mean. The heart wants what it wants.
That’s how I got into writing actually-before meeting her, I could barely write anything. Now…More than 300 posts on here plus some i am working outside of the blog.
Yes, it’s the same with me. I write when I am not happy haha
I’ve tried writing happy posts but it’s not my thing-I am good at erotic stuff though.