About me-read it and decide weather you want or not to get to know me better

I am a young girl but still-an old spirit which has taken over a young body. According to my birth certificate, I am 18 years old but my mind sometimes is over 50 years of experience (okay, maybe not 50 but at least 30)

I am half Bulgarian and half Russian but I was born and raised in the shitty country of Bulgaria; I hate it here and I feel like a foreigner in my own country, which if I may add is definitely not a good feeling. My parents are divorced but if you ask me, this is perhaps the best thing they both have done for me-sometimes this is the better solution than raising a child in an environment, full of hatred, lies and gossips.

I am into cooking-Italian cuisine is my favorite ever! Anything chocolate is my idea for the best dessert. I cannot stand caramel or fish-those are out of my meal list for sure.

I am bisexual and an Atheist but I am tolerant towards peoples’ beliefs-anyone can believe in whatever they want and I would never say anything against that until someone tries to make me believe in something I don’t want to-let’s be clear about that. Also-any homophobic, biphobic, transphobic and even-heterophobic people-please, don’t even bother to comment on any of my posts-it’s pointless and time wasteful.

I started writing about a year and a half ago and since then I’ve written a lot and continue on writing. I have some big goals in life, one of them being out of Bulgaria forever. I am single in the moment but that’s technically only-my heart’s taken by the most perfect woman on the world and despite we cannot be together she’s worth the pain and everything and if it’s meant I guess life would bring us together in the future. T <3

What is my blog about-it’s just a blog on the web in which I write about anything really-I don’t follow main topics, although gay/lesbian topics seem to be my priority. I am open to questions-don’t be afraid to ask me. I don’t bite (hard :P )

P.S: Call me Alex, despite that’s not my real name.

This is how I look.

254 comments on “About me-read it and decide weather you want or not to get to know me better”

  6. Honey…Honey bun…Alex…i like your writing a lot. A lot, a lot. Just wanted you to know…that i do…like your writing…a lot. :) (I dont want to like all of your posts and have you think i am a stalker. Lol, i am not)

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  11. It must be sad living in a place you don’t want to be. A dreadful shame. It is even harder liking/loving someone who does not return the feelings. But ya cant make these things happen by forcing them. There are many beautiful people out there who, I feel sure, would relate to your experiences and what you offer. Keep searching and you should find happiness. Stay positive in the meantime! I’ll think good thoughts for you!

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    • Thanks for the comment :)
      There’s actually something new about the person “who doesn’t love me back” etc-there actually IS something in there but it’s “still in progress”.
      It really is awful to be at such place-I don’t wish it to anyone, really. You are also right that I can’t force things, actually-shouldn’t force things since if I do, the results wouldn’t be good for sure.

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  12. See, you do understand the ‘rules of the game’. And finding a partner to cherish really is a game, albeit one with very serious consequences – as should be the case with true love. At the risk of sounding pompous, I have learned that the more you know yourself – And by becoming more comfortable with yourself as a result of those learnings – the more other people will like you. You are clearly intelligent, motivated and enthusiastic. Just those attributes give you a great head-start. I strongly suspect that love will be yours and probably when you least suspect it! Happy hunting!

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    • “Hunting” can be really interesting as well-I personally see that as learning new stuff about yourself, likes & dislikes mainly.
      We’re all players in a sense-we do play a certain position and sometimes we win, and sometimes we don’t.

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  13. Hi Alex . . . thanks for liking my post. Reading your about page, I often feel the same about my own country :D . (Although if you experienced the weather here you might want to go back home, lol.)

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      • Wow! That’s pretty chilly! It’s about 21 Celsius and sunny here in Los Angeles, California. Why do you dislike Bulgaria so much? I would imagine there is lots of culture there.

      • I won’t lie that the culture mixed with History is a positive thing. like Bulgaria was founded in 681 and not many countries can be proud of having such a long History full of events :)
        I dislike it because the politics suck, and because of the power they have, they make my life suck as well. (and not only my life). I hate how ignorant we are towards other countries. I also hate that fake patriotism we have (since many scream “Let Bulgaria live, but don’t even know when’s our independence day)… There tons of things I hate about my country..

      • It’s so interesting to hear your thoughts. I was born here in the US but I was raised in Costa Rica, I was able to see two very different cultures and two very different forms of government. It is has really been eye opening. You should visit the USA one day. I’m sure you will not want to go back home je je je je

      • You may have a point in here but my main goal is Canada actually. I want to live there in the future, although the idea of visiting The US is quite tempting :)
        As for you-I bet it was. Since I am half Russian and half Bulgarian, I get to know both countries’ Histories, culture and traditions

      • I would love to go visit Bulgaria but just the thought of the LOOOOOOONNNNNGGGGG flight makes me have second thoughts :) I might just do it one day. You never know…

  15. So any question…. “my heart’s taken by the most perfect woman on the world and despite we cannot be together “… Why? Why can’t you be with her??

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      • :( aww… Yeh that’s hard. Been there… Was 26yrs old and fell in love…. 12yrs difference… Hardest part.. I was the oldest… So many things get tagged on to someone being in love with a “minor”… Though I never so much as held her… My church had a hard time trusting me with teen girls… Like it was a plague that I would fall for every teen?? Wtf
        Anyway, if she loves you too.. I know it’s really hard for her too.

      • We have had our moments. I kissed her when I was 16 and we’ve spent time together. I even have her number now and the more I try to forget about her, the more I am reminded by her existence. Life brings us together somehow…

      • With her not being out… Does that mean she’s with another? Or you hoping maybe one day you will be with her?
        For me, the one I loved wanted to kiss me… But it was the first time she felt that way for a woman… It was my 2nd time… But back then I thought those feelings were a spiritual sickness and I prayed they would go away. I still keep In touch with her but she calls our friendship back then as fucked up and shouldn’t have been so close with such a age gap… :-/ she’s changed alot… She’s a proud lesbian now.. Butch hair cut… Not the same

      • I live in Bulgaria and she’s not out because in my country this is not really accepted. I believe she’s gay though, especially after the kiss-she didn’t try to tell me to stop or anything like that and even last time when we met she wanted me to tell her about my coming out.
        She has a rumored-to-be boyfriend, whom I hate despite it may not be true that they’re dating.
        It is my 1st time being so in love with a woman but I’ve women and dated women before her. She is something really special though-the person, who made me bisexual.

      • Awww… :) glad you found my blog

        For me, it was my husband that made me bi ;) . That person that turns your world upside down and makes you think long and hard about who you are.. Somehow Special doesn’t describe them fully.

  21. If you don’t like Bulgaria, you should just come on over to the US. :) I can’t guarantee it’ll be any better… but it’d be different! :)

    But really, hi. It’s nice to meet you. Thank you for the like on my blog :)

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    • I am planning to visit it for sure, as soon as I get my Visa…
      But yeah, you are right for sure that you can’t promise it’ll be better, but it’d be different for sure.
      And you’re welcome :)

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      • Awesome.I hope you like it over here, at least for a little bit. (: We do have some pretty sites over here like New York or California or Seattle. Worth seeing at least (:

      • Georgia. It’s horribly boring down here. And we have bipolar weather. Haha. But, I can’t deny it’s quite nice down here during spring and fall… which both last about two weeks and that it. xD

      • Then Georgia would be normal for you. Literally, it was 70 one day and the next day we had snow flurries…

      • We use Celsius so I am not really sure how’s that but Bulgaria has both extreme cold weather and extreme hot weather so I am used to that, although, I admit that I prefer the extreme cold with meters of snow…

      • As do I. I have extremely pale skin thus I much rather enjoy the cold. To be quite truthful, I actually prefer Fall and Spring the best. Hahaha.

      • I am half Russian and I am pale myself as well, with dark blue eyes and blonde hair (the original-I die it brown).
        I love Spring and Winter… Summer’s actually my least fave season to be honest. It’s a bit overrated…

  27. Hey Alex! Thank you for stopping by and liking my poem. I’m looking forward to your posts. Have a fabulous day. – Noora

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  36. Hey there Alex. Thanks for visiting my blog, and liking the post. I enjoyed reading your “About Me”. You look really nice in your picture by the way ;) x

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  37. Hi, Alex up until a week ago and possibly up to now I have been a young ignorant Christian southerner in the US. All of my life I have held a prestigious against people different from me and specifically homosexuals. Then my cousin comes out gay,and he is one of the best men I know and I love him with all my heart and it was very hard for me to accept he was gay. He began talking about his partner and he placed a wedge wall that is my Christian faith and my idea of what love is. I told him I still didn’t understand since down here in Georgia, outside of Atlanta there is not that much diversity as far as sexual orientation. Over the past week I have been visiting websites and racking my brain and I just can’t seem to get past this ignorant wall in my head. My cousin recommended this site to me and after reading some of these articles I think that you might be right one to talk to about this. Sorry for the very long comment. As you can see by my user name I am trying to be open minded. So please write me back, if you want to, if not I understand.

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    • Do not worry about the long comment. I am glad to read everything in a detailed way not only to expand my English knowledge but to also get the whole scene.
      I am not really sure how’re things in the state you are at but from the written I can guess that the majority of people aren’t that “open-minded” but if it makes you feel better, I guess, in my country is even worse. My country is the most homophobic one in the whole European union so as you can imagine, fighting for a change ain’t really easy, having in mind that my country was under communism for a quite big period of time.
      I get your confusion and I think that you should really judge the person according to your criteria but try to exclude the sexual orientation out of that list. Like you say “your cousin’s a great man” and the fact that you’re trying to change your whole view is definitely something that deserves to be clapped for. I mean not many would even try to do that as soon as someone comes out, especially being in a quite religious family.
      If you have any questions, I really suggest you asking me directly so I can be more specific.

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